well its been kind of a long time since i lost blogged .. life has been a dread for the past few mths but its kind of picking up now .. found lots of songs which i have been not able to for the last few years .. still haven't found the courage to do things which i wanted but not able to do so .. NS isn't really what u call a chalet == infact u can't call it a prison either .. its a disciplinary or what i rather call characteristic improvement programme that goes on for 2 yrs .. my character although its not really good yet , its better then b4 .. well i'm slightly fitter too ! its been 7 mths since i enlist .. haven't been in contact with my sec sch mates and stuff .. kind of miss them lol .. haven't been really a good friend to any of them oh well .. i still think i'm more suitable to be a loner .. zibiness lets u see lots of negative as well as positive traits of others not that i have the rights to judge others thou . been thinking of what i'm gonna do when i ORD , 1 and a 1/2 year to go . Poly ? Back To ITE ? Private ? Bah -__- I dun wanna be a useless person when i grow up . i know its kind of late to regret it but i still wanna give it a try afterall i was the 1 at fault playing and skipping sch all the while . Its kind of cool how NS makes u think of your future , i'm afraid to go on any further .. 2 yrs isn't a very long time afterall , i dun have any time to make my decisions .. "walk 1 step , count 1 step" - " boat reach bridge auto straight " tt was my way of living in the past , but i realise its not gonna help me survive in the future . even though i still hate making decisions and stuff , its time i need to make my own decisions , its my life , the path thats gonna accompany me for the next 20 or 25 yrs ( not that i'm gonna live that long ) . well another 10 mins to my "reunion dinner" . will blog another time in the near future i guess ! bye blog xD